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How do I explain to you the way I feel inside? How I just don’t want to do this anymore. How I just want to give up. How hard it’s been to get to where I am and not anywhere worse but nowhere near anything good.
How do I articulate into words these feelings which you will never understand? Feelings you’ve never felt before, feelings you’ve never even known exist.
How do I express to you the truth? The truth which I know will hurt you but is truth nonetheless.
I wish I had the words. I wish I had the words more than just pain and confusion and sadness. I wish I had the words that could magically take the feeling away. The words that I know do not exist.
The words which could stab without pain nor blood. The words which release without twitch nor tear.
